Ramblin' On

I think I'll just ramble....

I had to make a decision this week & it was an interesting one for me. For the last few months, we've been planning on going somewhere for Christmas, I've been in my "mode" of planning, web surfing, calling, to get the info I needed. I love to plan things like trips & parties! So we decided to go to Southern Calfornia, mainly Disneyland for a week December 13th. I LOVE Disneyland (sometimes I think I love it more than my kids, except Zac)I booked the hotel, checked where to buy the tickets, where we would stay close to the beach, etc. Then i went to bed. Well I lay there thinking with a million things running through my head & started adding up the cost of things. For a week, to drive, with about 8 people, 2 cars (or a van rental) food, gas, churros at disneyland (you have to get those), various mickey stuff, the cost would be close to $5000. I got up in the morning & told Scott, we just can't do it. We actually could, but with things the way they are in the world, I just don't dare. Scott has been really busy this year with curbing, but some of his friends who are landscapers have not been busy & that worries me. SO I guess we'll just stay home & have a wonderful Christmas here. If I pushed it with Scott he would say yes, but this was all my decision not to go so I guess you could say I'm feeling very mixed feelings, I'm happy with myself that I could actually say "no" to Disneyland & I'm sad I'm not going & most importantly.... I'm feeling peaceful.